Archive for March, 2009

I have been a stick in the mud on the banks of the river called change. What a big word CHANGE. It means nothing more than doing things differently. Differently or,  not the same as before. Well, that sounds great in the current world view, but when change starts, where does it end? When change comes can it stop? Can it slow down or does change actually speed up? Could change under the right circumstances become out of control? Change out of control would be called what?

Cancer, uncontrolled growth and spread of abnormal cells. Bad Change

Metamorphosis,  Biology. A change in the form and often habits of an animal during normal development after the embryonic stage. Good Change

I think it is safe to say change can be good or bad. Who determines whether the change is good or bad? The expert I would say. It takes a medical expert to know when uncontrolled growth of cells has become cancer and if  it can be stopped. 

What about nations? Germany embraced change and ended up with a cancer called Das Dritte Reich.

Here is my take on America’s new highway called change. We were tired of business as usual and honestly thought any change is better than this. History will record the outcome but at this point I have never seen such a polarized view of the change.

On one polar cap is a flag waving : We love the change with undivided heart of pleasure.

On the other is a flag : We are scared and preparing for the worst. 

America it is time to pray : meet you at the pole


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Dianna always gives Her best and puts Her own desires on hold

Need an honest answer, come to Her, you know the truth is told

Though others leave when times get tough I know she will remain

When my heart is parched and dry Her words have come like rain

She has suffered much yet Her love has endured the test of time

The passion She has given me has caused my words to rhyme

Wisdom found a home in Her and what a treasure now resides

Watch her with our children’s children you’ll see great love inside

Precious are my memories with Her and inspiration for my life

She was cute as childhood sweetheart now beautiful as my wife

She’s my other half my better half and the half has not been told

She’s my one of a kind no average girl in Her they broke the mold

Dianna having Gamma Knife surgery25th anniversary

Progression of Cushings Syndrome

 Progression of Dianna illness : Cushings Syndrome


Dianna and I were married in 1979 in 1982 She became very sick. No one could diagnose the Problem but after breaking several bones in Her foot by simply walking up the stairs we went to Dr. Travis in Harrisonville Missouri. He said something very serious was wrong and sent Dianna to specialist in Research hospital in Kansas City. He diagnosed Dianna with Cushings Syndrome. Cushings is basically a small tumor on the pituitary glad. Dianna has now had 3 brain surgeries and a gamma knife surgery. She has had Her pituitary gland removed and now takes more medicine than I can keep track of. Dianna has suffered so much yet keeps trusting God. She truly is inspiring when you have seen Her suffer like I have over the many years.

Well here we are Dianna and I have made it 30 years. When we got married Feb 9th1979 most people gave us a year. Nine days not months between our wedding and David’s birth had nothing to do with the jokes about people from Arkansas. Dianna was born in Hot Springs and my Mother was from Mena, so we both have razorback blood in our veins. We love Arkansas, jokes and all. We have survived every curve ball life has thrown our way, and though it has been hard to keep going back to the plate, we have, and we will. GOD has been so faithful to us. We have raised our kids and are enjoying our grandkids. Though Dianna can not go to the third world because of Her medical condition She has sacrificed alot and blessed my going. I always bring Her perspective with me as I am ministering. Her heart has provided me with the needed balance, as I work together with a great team here in the midwest to launch an orphanage called Abba House. You can check out the work at http://www.houseoffriends.org/Abbahouse.html .

You were ruff and tough, a true Tom boy to the core

The first day I saw you oh how my spirit soared

You were like a mustang daring to be tamed

A loner never crying out for fame

I was a wild one, adventure would be my call

Our lives mixed together, like a painting on the wall

Colors differing, yet blending, and converging into one

On lookers set and wonder, what will it be, when done

Wisdom and zeal have found a home in We

We have given our selves to life, as we crucified our Me

We are one, We are the picture of one, and what is left is none

Dianna I love Us Together, John

Thank Jesus for investing your life in US !!!!

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I am by defintion a bapticostal, raised in a traditional baptist family even a preachers Kid. I took the road of rebellion like many of my pears, only to find the end lonely, dark, and revolting. Through a dramatic encounter with the Lord, I found Jesus as my rescuer, my deliverer, my peace, and ultimately as my Lord.

I was an expert in pain, emotional pain that is. When I began the Christian walk I found a revolving door of people desperate for just a moment of peace. My peace that came from Jesus seemed to be over flowing and people just knew. Our House was always full. My wife Dianna is a great cook and hostess and together we were a team. It didn’t take long for the needs to outweigh both my character and Dianna’s patience.

So it was time to train, time to wrestle with the Lord, as the Lord chipped away at my pride and prejudice. The answer came in an unexpected way.  It was compassion. Soon after my Jesus encounter we started attending a charismatic church. I didn’t quit fit in with hyper-faith movement. I watched a pastor die of Leukemia. He refused medical care and stood on faith until the end. I watched those around him dwindle as it became apparent He was not healed.

I prayed on the phone with Him just a few days before He passed away. His Faith was so strong, and I felt ashamed at the amount of Christians who passed judgement with a sentence of Lack of Faith. During that same time my Wife found out She had Cushings Syndrome. We had a few people who pulled the Lack of faith card but in most cases our Denominational friends showed great compassion.

After 25 years and being sick, and healed and praying for the sick, and seeing many healed and many not, I have come to these conclusions.

•Isaiah 53 vs 3-5 3 He was despised and rejected by men,  a man of suffering who knew what sickness was.  He was like one people turned away from;  He was despised, and we didn’t value Him. 4 Yet He Himself bore our sicknesses, and He carried our pains; but we in turn regarded Him stricken, struck down by God, and afflicted. 5 But He was pierced because of our transgressions, crushed because of our iniquities; punishment for our peace was on Him, and we are healed by His wounds.

•summed up in Hebrews 4:15 Hebrews 4:15 (Amplified Bible) 15For we do not have a High Priest Who is unable to understand and sympathize and have a shared feeling with our weaknesses and infirmities and liability to the assaults of temptation, but One Who has been tempted in every respect as we are, yet without sinning.

Jesus is not on the cross any more. He is at the right hand of God the Father presenting our case for us. He felt what we feel and He is moved by our pain and stirred with compassion for us. 

Yet remember :

•Phil 2:5-11, 5 Make your own attitude that of Christ Jesus, 6 who, existing in the form of God, did not consider equality with God as something to be used for His own advantage. 7 Instead He emptied Himself by assuming the form of a slave, taking on the likeness of men. And when He had come as a man in His external form, 8 He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death–even to death on a cross. 9 For this reason God also highly exalted Him and gave Him the name that is above every name, 10 so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow– of those who are in heaven and on earth and under the earth– 11 and every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

See Jesus took on humanity and while cloaked in pain, defeated death, and Returned to heaven. His life was an example of identifying with the pain, and for the joy that was set before Him He endured, even the cross.

I am blessed to have been given the opportunity to pray for the sick in the third world where the needs are overwhelming. Many times I have  just wept, and could not even find the words to pray yet God healed. I don’t know why some are healed and some are not, but This I Know. Love in the heart and compassion in your hands, God will be there too, maybe not like you think but He Will  be there.

I challenge you to trust God and don’t offer a why God didn’t, or won’t, or hasn’t, and continue knocking asking and seeking. Continue loving people in their pain and not be scared off by it. Don’t make a person who hasn’t been healed feel like a outcast or shameful. It’s not 12 steps or a lesson in the Greek word for healing that’s needed. It is LOVE, give some away today.

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